one year to the day that I started on my new way of life.
Basically my eating is now pretty appalling but I gave up trying to control it a couple of weeks ago and have lost weight as a result. So this morning I weighed in with a 5kg loss and just under the 80kg mark. It's the first loss in a while for me. I am trying not to beat myself up that I have gained 10kgs.
It's been such a huge year for me. 13 months since I started studying and have completed 8 out of 12 units, 11 months since my husband and I separated and 11 months since I joined the gym
I am still on Zoloft but even on Zoloft I could have low times but overall now I am coping really well. I am stressed, hence the eating but I am studying, raising five kids, involved in church activities and the school P & C. But I am managing to keep all those balls up in the air and enjoying it. That is a major change and achievement.
My gym membership is due in a month. If I paid by yesterday it would cost me the same as last year. I haven't been much at all lately. I was really ambivalent about signing up again. But I did and I felt good about that decision. Now to actually go to the gym!
The gym classes I have tried over the past year are: cycle, Body Pump, Body Balance, Yoga, Pilates, TTT, Swissball, Fat Burner, Zumba and Body Combat. And I jogged on a treadmill.
Reading back over all that I can see how capable I am. But I do still sabotage myself. And in reality I am doing the best that I can right now.
