I have not been doing well at all. I did have a 400 gram loss this week which brought me down to 68.8kgs. But I am not connected to it. Does that make any sense? I haven't felt good, haven't exercised, haven't been focused on what I am eating so it doesn't feel like a victory.
Since weigh in Wednesday I haven't stopped eating. My depression hasn't been under control. I have been feeling better over the weekend but the end of last week was really tough. I had two assessments to do and I was having so much trouble coordinating my thoughts. I sent them off last night though so that was a huge relief.
I re did my fitness test yesterday. Forced myself to go and do it. My initial wall sit was 11 secs (so sad lol) and yesterday I did 2 minutes 7 seconds and I did the 1km time trial in 6 min 50 secs. I have barely exercised so I was pleased I beat my time.
So here we are at this stage of the challenge and I don't feel like I have progressed. This is the old me. Similar to my depression hanging around again. I hope that it is shortlived though. I guess maybe that may be the difference. And I am not giving up. There is no way.
I think I will continue with this challenge for the next round. I think I still need the support and accountability. I am definitely not where I wanted to be mentally at this stage.
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